Selfishness has become the order of the day. People are miserable because they're lonely or single or because people are impolite but they themselves feel they don't have to behave well toward others.
I see it in everything. And it's the ultimate distraction from who the real opponents in life are. Meanwhile we're turned in on ourselves and the struggle is the wrong one.
I don't know if I'm right but there seems to be a huge waste of energy going on every day over total nonsense where a smile, an apology or a 'thank you' would ease the whole situation.
People in my area are spitting in the streets all the time. This is still illegal, isn't it? While the TB rates in Europe sky-rocket out of all control, we allow people to spit in the streets. TB was the reason spitting was made illegal, I believe.
I read an article in the paper last year about a couple in Yorkshire (I think) who try in every way to live their lives in the style and attitude of the 1930s. Now, I appreciate that life wasn't all champagne and roses then. Things were bad. But by being bad, people realised they had common problems and seemed to be more of a community because of it. I've thought about that couple at least once a month since I read the article.
Community has seemingly died. The local pub near me has been demolished and now there stands an Indian restaurant. A very nice Indian restaurant but not a pub with a pool table and the chance to communicate with peers.
I feel increasingly isolated with this and it's seeming more and more that my childhood repetitive dream of the old man in a stone cottage by the sea with his dog was me and not some nonsense.
On a positive note, I have a great job and I couldn't be happier in that. I am buying my own flat, have a few incredible friends - as opposed to associates, for those that don't know the difference - and several Godchildren. My family are close to my heart and I do enjoy reasonable health.
Doesn't it seem strange that we all have something that we wish were different. I know I'm better off than Walt Disney (frozen/dead) or Marlon Brando (dead) but still I look for more.
I wish I knew and was in a loving relationship with a genuine, decent woman who could accept me for being who I am. I wish I had more money (although speicifcally not that gross amount you can win in the lottery necessarily), I wish I was fitter (unwilling more that unable to change this!) and, yes, less of a moaner!
Anyway, a beautiful day to start one of these things. Berkshire is in lovely sunshine and I'm going to treat myself to Bangers and Mash for dinner. Spotted Dick and custard for pudding.
Think I should have a cup of tea and catch up some of the stuff I've taped this week.
I can't watch all these games on Sky today. I think I've counted 5.
Anyway, if you've read this tripe, I hope you're well and enjoying your Sunday. Best day of the week for me - relax and take in some enjoyment.
Take care,
Evel.
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